Some people describe pain as a blazing furnace
Yet for me it has always been a numbing cold
A riptide of icy water, pulling me into its depths
The truly frightening part the realization that
In my heart of hearts, I don’t want to fight it.
Release. No more thinking, just..nothingness.
To know that as the days go by you lose a bit of your soul
to that overwhelming emptiness, it drains you.
But then you come by.
You shimmy and swirl your way through my door,
Little smiles, songs and dance, laughter and cuddles.
And without you even realizing it, you build a little fire beside my feet.
Two years and counting
even though my soul is cracked and leaking into that ever present void,
for just a moment,
just one more moment please, wrap yourself around me .
let me warm my soul beside your fire.