I suppose the most beautiful thing about human nature is the way we hunger. It is that alone that makes life blossom: The constant pull towards love and chaos.
Humans are greedy creatures. In many ways this has led to disaster after disaster, causing untold misery and destruction for thousands of years. Even in our greatest achievements we have usually caused tremendous problems.
Yet greed in and of itself is neither good nor bad. Like most things in life it has shades of grey( I refuse to make that joke we all know about it).
Individually we all hunger for more, sadly this hunger has translated into materialistic desires, this need to accumulate more things that serve no purpose but to show off to other people that we generally do not even like. Yet when turned inwards, that hunger can be something great, at least in my view.
The human that hungers for more knowledge, for more experiences, who wants to laugh more, dance madly, love more deeply. Someone who wants to not just tip a teaspoon into the waters of life, but plunge their whole bodies and submerge themselves in the chaos that is existence.
I spoke of values in my last post, of finding meaning in our lives. For myself, this means to experience every last drop of life as fully as I can. Does that mean I have to spend everyday learning something new or doing something crazy? of course not. It means that I want to be fully present in every moment, regardless of what I am doing. It means that in every thing I do, I want it to be something I choose to do, that brings me happiness or that which will bring me closer to something else I know will make me happy.
Happiness is solely our own. It is something found within and then thrown out around us, connecting with our environment and creating serenity through merging our lives with the life of the planet.
I hunger to be the person that I aspire to be, the person I know in the deepest parts of my mind and spirit.
I want to spend days reading voraciously, learning and seeing new perspectives.
I want to travel more and see new places, meet new people.
I want to touch everyone , to hug and kiss and make love and have rough sex, biting and scratching.
I want to explore my body through movement, to challenge myself to learn every inch of my system. I want to tell the truth as I see it, no matter the consequences.
I want to love everyone and hate everyone.
I want to take in every broken piece of myself and the millions of people in the world and stitch them all together until there is no I and you… simply we.
Until we are not we but love…just love.
But what I hope most of all is that you understand what I mean when I tell you that even though I do not know you, and even though I may not meet you, laugh with you, cry with you, or kiss you: I love you.
With all my heart.
I love you.
Valerie V for Vendetta