Forever asleep

I am drowning in a sea of my own emptiness.

Every day the sun rises, and for just a moment I feel renewed, reborn.

And then the memories come.

The moments lost, the mistakes made, the remembrance of connection broken.

Life beckons.

Eat, move, shit, work, sleep. Repeat.

Like a washer and dryer washing out the stains of the day and making that which

is worn and faded seem for just a moment to be new, every day starts again.

Every day I push, push to move forward, reach out to grasp some sense of,

some sense of hope? salvation? …some sense of feeling.

Sleep again.

Eat, move, shit, work.

Still empty.

I want to stay asleep and not wake up.

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